I have to keep reminding myself that my tortoise doesn’t go in a straight line. She keeps taking roundabouts and side trips. I thought it was the hare that did that. It would be wonderful if I could expect my healing to keep plodding one baby step at a time toward sanity and health. Unfortunately life doesn’t work that way. One day I’m swinging from a star and the next I’m swimming the Styx upstream and I don’t know how to swim.
I learned a long time ago in Al-Anon that it’s best to look at progress from a long view rather than comparing today to yesterday. That way I can say that I’m lots better than I was six months or a year ago. But I may not be better than I was last week or even last month. There will always be setbacks and I must remember to keep the faith that there is a “light at the end of the tunnel” even if I can’t see it right now.
Today I have felt sad. I feel like a lonely soul rather than a free spirit. I know this will pass. I have to wait it out and work through it. I had lunch with friends today. Tomorrow I have a very busy day–a hair cut, a visit with my sister, a lunch date with a friend and a facial tomorrow evening. Pampering is good. Busy is good.
A good quote for me today: “You make a life out of what you have, not what you’re missing.”—The Forgotten Garden by Kate Morton
Back On My Own 